Return to the Sea

I’ve been sleeping. Dormant. Occupied by duties and distractions that have taken priority, much more than they should have.
I’ll try and blame it on circumstance; money, work, my health. Truth is I’m too distracted. I’ve let bad habits develop into a lifestyle, somehow convincing myself that goals would still happen if I just started tomorrow. Maybe in the back of my mind I’d resided to the idea that they actually won’t.
But then everything got reset. A new place, a new life, and a new burst of motivation. Things can happen, but you have to make them happen.
I want to make music. When I packed my life into boxes and moved to a new home, I accepted that doing what I wanted was too difficult. Time to take a break. There will be time in the future. I told myself I wasn’t giving up while I put all of my energy into plan B.
I’d accepted that it would be a long time before I’d perform again. But then I had opportunities thrown at me out of the blue, and I was forced out of retirement. And so with a stripped back set I was back on stage, receiving feedback from total strangers that reminded me why I ever wanted to do this at all. The kind words of strangers can be intoxicating.
It was then that I realised that you can’t sit around waiting for the right circumstances and conditions. You have to find a way to make it work with whatever you have.
I don’t know exactly what it is I’m trying to achieve. But I know what it is that I’m motivated to do.
SoI’ll do it.
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Good for you, follow your heart. Ignore the chatter and the distractions. The most important thing is to keep moving forwards, doesn’t matter how slowly, just keep moving.
Dude,
You’re amazing and always will be. Xx